“Beth, you’ve got to help me.” Ally
was hunched over on the couch, hands clenched around a wad of Kleenex already damp from
her tears. “Please. I know we don’t know one another very well, but I don’t
know who else to talk to.”
Beth
scooted her chair a little closer. “Well, sure,
I’ll help you. What’s going on?”
Ally closed
her eyes, shook her head, and more tears began to track down her cheeks. Beth
sat silently, praying a little, and finally whispered, “Whatever it is, I know
we can get through this together.”
After more
tears, Ally took a deep breath and in a strangely emotionless voice said, “I
don’t want to be a mother.” She glanced quickly at Beth’s face, and then cut
her eyes away, looking down. “It’s probably not right, but I’m just not ready. I just can't do it.”
“Honey, I
understand. I have three, and they are a handful.” She paused, and gently took
Ally’s hands in hers. “So what does Bill say?”
“He doesn’t
know I’m struggling. The idea of being a dad is great for him, but he
doesn’t have to deal with anything. I’m here all day, and he leaves for work,
and it all falls on me.” She started sobbing again.
“Well,
okay. I understand perfectly, and men are men, right? They never do any of the
heavy lifting. We women have to stick together and make the hard decisions,
don’t we?” Beth smiled, and for the first time Ally looked up and smiled too.
“So when is
the little one due to arrive?”
“He gets home
from preschool at 11:30. I’ve made up my mind. I think it's best for everybody. If you can help me, I was
hoping we could do it today, before he has to have a nap.”
“Okay, you just sit tight. I’ll
call and set it up. And I’ll be with you the whole way.”
* * * * * * *
“Hi,
I’m calling about a – I think they call
it a PPA. Post-partum abortion. You do that, right? Okay, sure…no, for a friend
of mine…It’s a little boy, I think he’s three...No, it’s just not working
out…Of course, she’ll sign whatever you want…Two o’clock this afternoon? Okay,
that’ll be fine. So we just drop him off, and you handle the rest? How long
does it take?... It doesn’t, you know, hurt does it? Oh, great. See you at 2.
* * * * * * *
The front door banged open. “Hi,
Mommy, I’m home.”
